2009 is almost over. 2010 brings new mysteries and adventures. God has been bringing through quite the journey and as much as i like to think i'm in control, i'm about as in control as a blind man walking in a pitch black room. I enter this new year with not a little bit of trepidation. I feel this way because its a brand new year and what lies before me is an increase in knowledge garnered from a school of higher learning, but there are so many variables on my journey there that i don't know what will happen. Granted i'm not that worried because that would imply that i dont trust God to do what is right and beneficial for me and yet, at risk of sounding like a broken record, i hate the unknown. Aside from my impending journey to Graduate school, i look toward finding a different job as my current one has become redundant and tiresome.
It also seems that my interests are focusing more and more on issues of christian living and i think more about how the church has become tired and doesn't seem to know who it is anymore. Case in point i'm endeavouring to write a book about youth culture and how they have been brushed aside for so long. But i also want to explore themes of death and dying and how american culture seems to be so insulated from the reality of death. Also the subject of self worth and if people truly understood their relationship to God and how He feels about them it would be so liberating. A lot of people live with unneccesary shame and shallow self image. Its amazing how people hear the truth of God's love for them but dont understand its implications. How can you possibly feel that you are worthless or unworthy of love if the Creator of the world chose you out of inflinite possibilites, you were a result. You are a product of God's overwhelming love and creative joy. It blows my mind to even think abuot it. Left to ourselves we are unworthy, but because God because of the Loving sacrifice of abundant Grace we can be called sons and daughters of God. Just a great message. As time goes by I am more and more convinced of my role in life as an encourager and teacher and all this for the glory of God and the advancment of His kingdom.
2010 maybe unknown and a little intimidating but I know God will guide me through and all will work out fine.
